Sitting here the room gets slowly darker and the Christmas tree simultaneously brighter. Last week at this time the tree was a sort of cold statue reminding me that Christmas was coming....looming. Today with only time .... it's glow is prevailing . I can sit here and look at it and enjoy it. It's obligatory way has faded and I see it now as something of a monument. I made it, Christmas came and went. I feared it's suffocation. I wasn't sure if I could keep my breath when the loneliness swept in. Each and every ornament that has been added over the years screamed with memories and now they hang silenced with a sense of history with one more Christmas passed.
One more Christmas passed.... and next year another, then another. With everyone it will bring a semblance of normalcy..... a sense of my new life and what to expect and what to hope for. As this tree in my family room takes on new life I pray that my heart will also. I hope for a new year, a better year, a new life, a better life. I hope for this Christmas to have brought me a gracious lesson that will bring a new posture and purpose to this next year and to this next life.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
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